It's been three months and it still doesn't seem real. I find myself thinking or hearing something that I wanna tell you and than it hits me again. I keep hoping I'll wake up and it's been a terrible nightmare. It's just not real. I know you are always around me. But it's just not the same as having your here.

The new Rock of Love has started with Brett Michaels.  I know I said I wasn't gonna watch it but I am lol. I was shocked yesterday to hear Heath Ledger died. I really liked him. We are looking for a bigger house. I wanna find something closer to "E" and "S" if possible but we want a nice neighborhood and some land too. I know we'll find something. I'm praying we get pregnant too. You know how long I've been wanting that. If it's meant to be it will happen. Keep watching over Mike. He really misses and needs you. I know you are guiding him. Well, i gotta get ready for work. Not looking forward to it, but I gotta do it. I Love You!! Miss You Terribly!!   

Alter Bridge - In Loving Memory Lyrics

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
Ooooo
I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still

All you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

Ooooooo.....

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I found this looking for Josh Groban Christmas music. I know you would love it. LOL

I was thinking about the first Thanksgiving you had with Mike. You guys came to my Mom's with Steph and Gilby brought John John. Billy Had all the kids there. We were all together that day. That was my best Thanksgiving.

TLMB

Yesterday was "E"'s birthday. We are going to Chuck E Cheese tonight to celebrate just like you wanted. I'm gonna get them Shrek the 3rd. I'm sure they will love it. Remember you and Mike took "E" to see it at the theater for her first theater movie?  I talked to your Mom yesterday. She's doing ok. I got some great books from Borders. You know how I love to read. 'snicker' I took off work today. I needed an extra day.

I want to thank you for the time we had. We made the best of it. I love you cuz. Miss you!

You came to me last night. I know you are ok. I never doubted it. It's just hard to believe you aren't physically here anymore. I was doing so well, but I need more time. I'll give "E" kisses for you tomorrow. They will never forget you. I promise. I love you!

TLMB

The Crow-It Can't Rain All the Time

John Denver-For Baby(For "E" and "S")

Rob Thomas-Now Comes The Night

Tracy Chapman-The Promise

Alphaville-Forver Young

Celine Dion-Fly(Anime)

My Chemical Romance-Welcome to the Black Parade

My Chemical Romance-Helena(Sims 2 Video)

I took "E" and "S" to the movies last night. Lisa came with too. We came to see you than we went to Friendly's to eat and than to see the Bee movie. They are a handful lol. They were perfect when they had to be. Great pics we took too. Thank You!