It's been three months and it still doesn't seem real. I find myself thinking or hearing something that I wanna tell you and than it hits me again. I keep hoping I'll wake up and it's been a terrible nightmare. It's just not real. I know you are always around me. But it's just not the same as having your here.

The new Rock of Love has started with Brett Michaels.  I know I said I wasn't gonna watch it but I am lol. I was shocked yesterday to hear Heath Ledger died. I really liked him. We are looking for a bigger house. I wanna find something closer to "E" and "S" if possible but we want a nice neighborhood and some land too. I know we'll find something. I'm praying we get pregnant too. You know how long I've been wanting that. If it's meant to be it will happen. Keep watching over Mike. He really misses and needs you. I know you are guiding him. Well, i gotta get ready for work. Not looking forward to it, but I gotta do it. I Love You!! Miss You Terribly!!